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A Medley In Christ alone I place my trust And find my glory in the power of the cross In every victory Let it be said of me My source of stregth My source of hope Is Christ alone You are my hiding place You always fill my heart with songs of deliverance Whenever I am afraid I will trust in You Let the weak say "I am strong In the strength of my Lord" Shephed of my soul I give You full control Wherever You may lead I will follow I have made the choice To listen for Your voice Wherever You may lead I will go Be it in a quiet pasture Or by a gentle stream The Shepherd of my soul is by my side Should I face a mighty mountain Or a valley dark and deep The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide
Your miracle Heya! *gRINz* haven't written for yonks i guess...bleahs...i guess too many things have happened these few days...weeks..but just as I feel that i'm getting really burnt out, He restores the oil to keep my lamp burning. Thank You soo much! Hee..hrms, i guess the news would have spread by now...yep, ah wells... I got into medicine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bEAMs* trying to sound cool now, but when jan told me the results were out on friday..boy, did i start running up and down the stairs to the letter box(daddy dearest then smirked yesterday to tell me he knew what was going on with me when i continually pretended i wasn't worried)..but yup! And i guess i was disappointed after checking the letter box at least 5 times...so after meeting shen, carissa and gawain on sat at church, i went home and gave it one last shot.. Opened the letter box... Saw a huge stack of envelopes... Sifted though the normal sized ones... Disappointed. All that was there was my wages. And a couple more letters for daddy dearest. Trudged up the staircase...crestfallen...thinking that the raging storm outside suited the scenario. Looked down again at the stack of envelopes in despair. ?!!! Wait a minute...this thick, huge envelope...isn't any investment report... It's...*scrambles to rip open envelope, right and left feet on two different steps, umbrella ledged between jaw and shoulder* Bursts into grateful tears on the step. Well...there's the embarrassing account... But yup! :) if there's any thank you speech to be made.. Thank You. Thank You thank You thank You thank You thank You thank You thank You thank You thank You! Yep...cause i didn't do anything...You did everything..(in fact, i screwed everything up) So this is Your glory, and Your work in me :) But just as I delight in Your grace and mercy..I do know. I know the race has barely begun. And I know how, in Your determination for me to tread this path, have made Your plan work through all wonders, despite me straying and disappointing You countless times.... *gRINz* I guess fear and excitement grips me at the same time as I stand in awe of You.. the preparation You placed and am placing this ding dong through... May I never cease to be Your light that declares Your Name, Father...and to keep close to You, to walk with You..to know Your Voice. And for now: I praise You..I'll praise You all my days... *sMILez* i know some peeps may ask: would i still be thankful if i hadn't gotten in? Disappointed, i definitely would have been. But i know where I stand. And given the circumstances, applying for the course was already pushing against all odds. Yet, the greatest upset would be the confusion. If this desire for Him to work through me in that certain way has never ceased burning since secondary school..and how I always had the urge to stand up the past year in the various calls, I may have been thoroughly misguided and wrong... But that would simply mean He wants to work in me a different way. A way that would enable me to serve Him and for Him to use me in a better way...in fact, the best way that I wouldn't have known and couldn't know. So yup! My greatest joy is not in the entering this course..but this: That He has made clear the race I have to run in Him(blind ole me should have seen it for ages though)..and that in all my apprehension, He has said this: "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." What a fool I was to doubt the sovereign greatness of God. So peeps! Lesson of the day: Trust in Him with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all ways turn to Him and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:% God works with the impossible :) I guess...I am living proof of that, apart from His infinite works of old and new. I pray that all who learn of this will not see the girl who has survived the tempest..but instead, to see and stand in awe of the God who has chosen to work in the life of a girl (or a sheep) prone to falling down ravines. And I can tell you this: this is only the smallest of all reasons of why I, or we need God, inclusive of this: a life with God, runs on human irrationality, but is empowered with adventure and love...more exciting than the countless expeditions i may go through...more unpredictable and amazing than the sights one could hope to see. I like that life. And I'm all for it! You?
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