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There's A Hero Billy Gilman There's a flower in the smallest garden Reaching for the light There's a candle in the darkest corner Conquering the night There is amazing strength In a willing hand There are victories That you've never planned There's a hero In everybody's heart There's a fire inside of everybody Burning clear & bright There's a power in the faintest heartbeat That cannot be denied Go on and trust yourself You can ride the wind You're gonna take your dreams Where they've never been There's a hero In everybody's heart Go on and trust yourself You can ride the wind You're gonna take your dreams Where they've never been There's a hero In everybody's heart There's a hero In everybody's heart
like this song!!! More Than Words Composição: Desconhecido Saying I love you Is not the words I want to hear from you It's not that I want you Not to say, but if you only knew How easy it would be to show me how you feel More than words is all you have to do to make it real Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me Cause I'd already know What would you do if my heart was torn in two More than words to show you feel That your love for me is real What would you say if I took those words away Then you couldn't make things new Just by saying I love you More than words Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand All you have to do is close your eyes And just reach out your hands and touch me Hold me close don't ever let me go More than words is all I ever needed you to show Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me Cause I'd already know What would you do if my heart was torn in two More than words to show you feel That your love for me is real What would you say if I took those words away Then you couldn't make things new Just by saying I love you More than words
*gRINz* haha ooh!!! wall fire at suntec city's real cool!!! excellent decor! brilliant service, great food and desserts! haha went to celebrate jo's burfdae yesterday night and boy did we have a feast!!! muahahah!!! had pizzas (one which looked like it had tropical vegetation growing on it...but was brilliant! absolutely brilliant!) and kebabs served brilliantly (yesh swaku ole me) harhar and had yummy deserts!!! the choco thing was great! haha so was da jie's lemon tart and honeycomb icecream served with a chunk of honey comb! :)*bEAMS* haha the dessert ruth and i shared(everything comes in servings fit for 2) was pure aphrodisiac! hee was some strawberry pavlovi (spelt correctly) dish...basically something that looked like a burfday cake, was nothing but strawberries and cream, just that the "cake" had an egg white centre covered with a thick wall of sugar icing before being wrapped in whipped cream....heavenly!!!!!! haha let's go there again!!!! hee...anyway, saw xing ning waitressing there...haha amusement..really miss the good ole days...but each day's as great as before! *gRINz* except those with injections of course... haha and watched ella enchanted on saturday with jane and jan midarlings...hilarious movie! haha although the prince looked like an oversized hobbit and it deviated from the book..but the show was a "guffaw-inducer"!!!!..haha..even though we were sitting in the a row in plaza sing...causing the characters to look a bit too big for a compliment haha...but it was great..the kids behind us started cheering and clapping their hands when the bad guys got caught haha and became everyone's centre of attraction for a while with everyone going "so cute..." haha...and then mexican food at pizza hut with great meat balls! although it was like subway's...and off for sat's service!!! where i just couldn't help but keep diao-ing qiang...haha sorry my fellow mhi inmate (mental health institute) ! haha..
*gRINz* am back! had another horror experience with injectionjs at alexandra hospital today...ms nurse couldn't find a big enuff vein to poke and so spent like 5 minutes feeling around my entire arm..she wanted to poke the cranny of me arm or my hand..which i could imagine to be highly painful...heh could imagine my face changing colour everytime she suggested a new spot and the last straw came when she said , "oh well, we'll try out this spot first okay?" heh...the "try" and "first" turned me blood stone cold man! remembered chris telling me how this male nurse poked him 5 times before finding the vein and almost freaked out...sobness....(!!-_-) heh anyway! stupid thyroid thing went up again...which means more pills *sniffles* and argh! purposely tried to put on weight so it'd seem as though the pills were working..sighness... yesh...saw this cat lying in the middle of the walkway approaching the red house this afternoon...was really cute and thought it was sleeping...horrified when i saw flies on it and it didn't respond at all..i mean, cats don't just sleep anywhere right? they'd find some cool shade or cosy corner...dunno why but felt quite sad for the cat..heh i must be mad... yup!!! haha and ding dong me! was so sleepy i fell asleep on bus 61 on the way home today!!! ack!!!! and!!! didn't wake up until the bus driver had parked it nicely in the bus bay and turned off the engine...scared him when i suddenly appeared i guess heh..freaked me out too..haha this is really bad lah...
i saw you today...dear old friend.. *sMILEz* somehow i'm amazed at my knack of remembering faces...the moment my eyes turned to you in west mall i knew it had to be you..maybe i was too stunned to react in time...or maybe i was so "hum4" to go up and call out your name, since 7 years ago we lost contact because you didn't wish to keep in touch..*gRINz* or maybe even more so was my blurness after sleeping on the bus home..maybe even seeing you with your special "him"..laughing happily away... but you've changed. :) for the better of course..amazing what the years can do to oneself eh? :) you're prettier, happier, grown up..a completely different gal from the primary school girl...more mature too, i hope :) and then i wonder how you've been..how's your cool and funky SAF mom..what happened to you ..and i think about the present i've always meant to give you in secondary one if we met again, still lying now in my cupboard...hee i was tempted to call out and tell you to wait, running home to get the present before catching up with everything that happened to you..but i guess it didn't happened... did you recognise me? did you remember my name? did you remember the times we had in primary school, a frenship that first taught me the meaning of being hurt..did you still remember me, my friend? don't think you'll ever read this, but i wish the best for you my dear..that He'll bless and keep you always, and that you'll be really happy~! *hugs* cos you'll always be my fren, however vague it may be.
Heya! *gRINz* wonder if you're still waiting for this reply...really sorry for the terrible delay..have come to suspect that the comp does dislike me... :) remember when you asked me a long time ago how life still goes on even without a goal? I wonder if sunday served to answer your question in any way..but you need to remember this midarling, there is no such thing as life without a goal..and this applies so much more to you *sMILEz* Why so? Without the Christian element, life is full of little goals don't you think? We strive to be happy, to do what we like to do,to love and be loved in return..and then we make our short term or long term goals-be it passing an exam, career, relationship, to make each day a satisfactory one for ourselves. Even now, your goal would be to survive through each school day, to do your homework and have a healthy and close relationship with your friends. That's life. Or life as you would call it for an average student. But take a step back midarling, and allow me to lift the veil to what lies behind this curtain we call the "materialistic life"...to our Christian context on what a goal is. Have you thought about it? Even if you haven't you might have heard us talk about it endless of times, so much so it's a wonder our ears don't drop off..yesh! It's called a "purpose". Stripping it all down to the bare minimum our purpose in being created was to simply worship and praise Him, not just you or me but everyone on the face of this earth. Then with satan and his band of devils, there comes a greater purpose for you and me. Jeremiah 1:5 says, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew(or chose) you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." That's how unique and precious you are in His sight, and how a plan has been set forth for you my dear. So maybe the question isn't about not having any goal in life, but in finding out what it is according to His will and in faith following the paths He's crafted especially for you, a high priest, kings and queens called according to His purpose. Of course, the direction may not be very clear now, but you are not to give up on yourself, understand? Jaeson (our speaker on sunday) was correct! If it's something satan fears, it's a youth on fire for God, for youths aren't to be easily reckoned with! Jesus was only 12 when he began to stand fearlessly on the temply grounds to preach, majority of the prominent Christians were youths midarling! And as jaeson mentioned on sunday, there is power in you! power in one sufficient to cause a revival across nations! Of course, it's not everyday we see angels descending to give us His message..but who knows, you could be a child accomplishing great things for the Lord! And you will as long as you are willing to! The Holy Spirit searches the church to look for a willing heart, upon which great things will be done through that person..are you to be that person my dear? Yes, tough it is...but are you willing to go thru fire and a hard road? Haha other religions call it "karma" and "fate"..as an attempt to describe what occurs so coincidentally and perfectly in the sequence of time..but you know that it isn't true..You could always bemoan the senselessness of life now, the hopelessness of being a student such that when God places something in your way one argues it off with a despairing cry..."it must be fate!" I don't think so..more often to mold and teach you midarling...don't the best lessons come from experiences that affect you the most? or something you had to work very hard for? Indeed, studies and all may not be smoothsailing, but do know that you'll always have friends around you, and me! :) to give you help and a shoulder to lean on..and of course, not forgetting the one who'll always be waiting for you to run to Him..our everlasting Father. "'I can't' occurs when I am in charge, but 'I can' occurs because He's in charge"..will you be willing to step back and let Him steer the direction for your life midarling? or hold on to it? the bible says, (Matthew 10:39) "Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it." Could you do that? of course, it'll be difficult, as all things are when the devil anticipates us doing something great for the Lord, but no one said running the good race will be easy...champions and masters of their work do not come out easily..it means sweat, tears...but the reward at the end defeats all that has passed...taking climbing a mountain for example...where the journey up is tiring with injuries and falls..but once on the peak..the exhiliration from being on top of the world and seeing the majestic view makes it all worth it! So for starters...wouldn't the goal be to walk closer to God..and to lead a life that walks with Him? And in doing that, to first forgive and learn to accept and love those around you. Of course,forgiving ain't easy..that's why it's called "for-giving"..a giving away of your hurts and anger to shower love and care..a love, not hatred that was meant to be given...not a matter of choice, but as a commandment : John 13:34 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." and also (Ephesians 4:2) "Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love." How can one even begin to love His people and be His tool when one doesn't accomplish this simple commandment in a group? Not everyone will be pleasing to the self..but they can be acceptable and be loved in a christian like manner...not on your own strength..but by His my dear..so that your "I can't"s are "I can"s..and it stems from overcoming pride and stubbornness too.. it's not impossible midarling and i applaud you in advance cause i know you'll be able to do it.. Another point? That satan ensures stumbling blocks in our progress as a church occur..not because of persecution for still it may thrive ever stronger...but by removing the foundations by which we were built upon: unity and love based on God. If these do not exist midarling, if a building were made of sand, we'd fall in a thunderstorm, and what a better way to do it than to plant discord, dissatisfaction, ideas of 'euw, he's/ she's a weirdo" and "i can't stand him/her!" in that vulnerable head of ours..our limbs cannot function properly if the brain does not transmit signals via nerves that synchronise movement..you and i wouldn't be walking properly or even be typing if everything that is a part of us didn't listen to each other..in other words, "SCREWED UP". and i guess satan's quite eager to see that in our church...waiting for the moment to gloat and blare these two words to its minions. It's a moment i wouldn't ever want to see even as it gloats over the blaspheming of the church in setting up a "gay church"..and i do hope to prevent it from happening midarling...so let's start by trying to accept everyone in the group okie? It's not just a girls group, but comprises of the guys as well...and they'd exist everywhere! Try to pray about it..for Him to give you discernment and wisdom..and see with your heart, not with your eyes midarling..and you'll find a beauty in everyone often concealed in a desperate attempt to "shield" or "protect" oneself... And lastly midarling...love, love those around you not because they appeal to the self, but because He loved us first, and He loves us all..doing it in love for Him.
Hee finally got the chance to come up here to type...sorry lynn for the very late reply... *sMILEz* am still affected by sunday...eyes itchy from the sudden outpour of tears...halfway through the 9.30 service(betcha i freaked my sec ones out muahaha...anyway, we call you the precious ones...) kind of made me wonder why was i crying..mad? noh..affected by people around me? noh...somehow my world at that moment shrunk. Shrunk to a point where all i could see was Him..all i could feel was Him..and when that happens one gets overwhelmed..like how i get when i'm alone in the room worshipping Him with what i am, thinking of how He's loved me..to the point where i could never ever deny His existence, and His vast and depthless love, grace, peace, goodness...and when jaeson ma talked about His crucifixtion it was too much to bear...His sacrifice never fails wring me apart..and to remind me when i've tired or start to delve into worldly things... and yet, at the moment my world expanded..expanded such that it fitted into (at least tried to fit) the world as He saw it..sadness, exhiliration all mixed into one..after the services went to eat at heeren with my family..with bottled up feelings from the 1130 service (stubbornly refused to let it all out)..and something, or rather many things i saw made me run to the ladies, into a cubicle, to cry and pray..yet words seemingly insufficient to tell Him how i loved Him, more than any other...how it must be causing him so much heartache for this world so inherent with evil He called to be His own, each of us His beloved... Hate the way i am sometimes..compromising Him for all that i have to do..told my dad in response to what he said about his friend that it is possible to focus on God in spite of all the work that's upon us..but i forgot how hard it gets..to magnify Him and to diminish oneself..brought my bible to school today to do quiet time since i had a 3 hour break..didn't really work out eh..and i know it's so wrong, just so wrong...for now i am not leaning on Him but my own strength..which is just as mighty as a little seed compared to that of His...that i'm starting to forget. Fear the weakness i have in front of Him when i run to Him..and forget how healed and loved i am when i do that...haha camel if you read this..it's not that my diary's too sad..well, maybe it is..(and it's not a diary either, it's a prayer book)..tears come because i know however unaccepting i am, how my thoughts may be, I know that He's there to forgive, to love and to carry me..and in the midst of my grief/ disappointments/anger/upsets... His gentle reminder comforts and brings me to my knees.. But i want to run to You Lord...no matter how hard the journey is..I want to continue loving You..to make my life one worthy of Yours alone..even if i may not be as successful as those fighting valiantly for You, even if my love isn't even 0.0001% of Yours..I'd still love You Lord...*sMILEz* to sing love songs to You every second of the day..to see the branches sway in the wind and the majesty of mountains and silent beauty of the oceans in praise of Your Holy Name..that if they could they'd dance, they'd bow and roar if only to express even a teeny portion of Your Majesty..aching to break forth in praise and worship.. I'd like to do that continuously Lord...and at times it seems so impossible to contain my joy and gratefulness at being chosen..it seems so hard to accept that peeps don't know what You've done for me and for them as well, that if they knew they'd believe despite the absurdity...for the impossible occurs when You're present Lord! And i'll keep loving Your people, no matter how hard it gets at times, no matter how painful it'll be..for i know that in each of us, no matter how evil or selfish or two faced is a desire...Be it a desire to be loved, to be accepted and to know You..Your love that transcends all time and started even before we were formed, even before You breathed life into our vulnerable forms, You loved... May my life be a living sacrifice... "The universe is at Your feet, Gives You praise evermore. The stars will light the sky for You, And always, God be praised..."
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