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my heart broke when i saw your photos...in truth i never knew you were so photogenic until i saw them(=)) and it died when i saw your grieveing parents, your grandparents. did you realise they loved you so much?did you know that we girls loved you so?so much that the tears we cried were like tidal waves...never subsiding but building on bit by bit...such was the overwhelming pain....and it didn't help that on that sunday in church, memories flooded back, and so did the tears...the empty seat next to me that once belonged to you is indeed gone forever... *smilez* i wanted to tell him that you loved him, but i thot the better of it to prevent creating a shadow within him, which i knew you wouldn't have wanted to...but one thing i know, he regrets just as i do, how we didn't spend enuff time wif you...even me, hardly calling you to encourage you and comfort you, to pray with you, and to be your support in the seeming darkness... at hme i tried to revive memories of u, but when i did in the wee mornings, all i remembered was u lying there...and it pained me to think that u were gone, and if i felt this bad, uncle and aunty would feel infinitely worse with your room and diaries a constant reminder of the days when you walked upon the surface of the earth... do u know i've seen 2 peeps who resemble you in so many ways? your effusive charisma,the stature relived once again.... it hurts midarling up till now. even though i've lost 2 frens thru ways that brought hurt and heartache, nothing equals yours, and no matter how much i try to run away, i crash into a stone wall and it hurts even more... i'm proud of you. i really am. you have fought the good fight, displaying courage and even more so, the increasing faithfulness you had in the Lord as He was faithful, ending your torment towards the end of your days.we all admire you for who u are, and seek to be like you, how u constantly said "i love you", how u cared, how u did become a "100% God's child" in my heart you still live, as u are in His courts, a burning candle full of warmth, a reminder of the attitude i shld have towards life. How i shld seek a relationship wif Him the way u had in the end... until then midarling, till we meet again...i'll always love you . and i'll remember that life has hope, that the 200+++ peeps who prayed for you, who offered to help are a testament to the fact that not all evil exists.. Praise be to the Lord! .
*gRinz* wow! it's almost a year since i last wrote..:) but, many things have indeed happened since then...mostly sad things...that which happened on the 31st May, 0315... i miss you...just last week that i thot of you. actually i do think of u frequently...your "blanchee-chaks", my pee pee pal, you being the "pee" and me, the other....our arrangements to meet in church early but never ever succeeding ;)...your hugs...your fantastic dress sense...your bubbly self...how you prayed for me in sec4 for my prelims, how we wanted to go to hc together but parted ways, and now u are indeed gone. maybe it's just for a short while...after all, time passes by so quickly in this world... remember when you first came? hee to tell the truth i was quite upset cos it seemed as tho u were closer to chuah and andrea...but as He planned, you and i became the best of frens... i love you midarling, really do...it's funny how peeps never appreciate each other until the person's really gone, and then the emptiness sets in... did you see the card our small group made for you? *sMILEz* and we're really called talkingGod.com now..haha! of all the names...:) do u know i was afraid to see you for one last time? and when i arrived at the church i hoped desperately that it was a farce, that you would walk out and grin, and tell us "i'm still here, my darling". but no, you didn't, and you were peacefully asleep, probably now playing tennis wif Him in golden tennis courts...
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