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*gRINz* the link to the story works now!! though i shan't write for a while...magic's pawn and all's rubbing off on me..hee i'm afraid i'll get into the "mindspeak" business...
*gRINz* hahaha!!!! i'm as happy as a mouse!!!! hahaha!!! why?!!! because.... 1) mos buger at west mall's open!!! 2) and this is the most important...meimei bought me a praying mantis made from leaves!!!! hahahahah!!! happiness!!!! *gRINz* hee although it really freaked me out!! :) hahaha!!! just gave it a bath....gosh i'm so happy~!! hahaha!!! yupyup!!!! and happie burfday shu han midarling!!! hee shall broadcast it so everyone knows!!! may you be always filled wif happiness and may He touch you with His unending and bountiful love!!! *hugs* love you lots midarling!! hahaha...
haiz...have been reading almost too depressing stuff recently...furuba's having undertones of grief, pity, a promise of a sad future etc whilst mercedes lackey's magic's pawn's killing me... *gRINz* haha finished the latter yesterday and halfway through the book i just started crying...and i couldn't read on cos it just became too painful, raw and heavy grief coming upon me like sledgehammer....argh! Heartbreak!!! heh..She's good yah? haha yuanqi and jan would certainly agree...really good at making u fall in love with the characters..and worse, making sure we can feel the full impact of their emotions.. if i thought bedlam's bard was brilliant, this would have to be magnificent! Hee in order to keep reading, i had to do what the male protagonist did-wall myself from the book..haha not as successful as him...but it did help me get to the last page...crap, mercedes lackey's really good! haha...all right, so it has strong overtones of yaoi-ness...and you guys may really dislike fantasy...but she does have a knack of making fantasy not so much a fantasy...and she does play more on the emotions of the characters, the love (seriously, if the coupling were normal all the readers would have been waiting for them to have the oh-so-natural three lettered thing..heh)..and successfully gets me, the reader to laugh at the correct bits( yup! it can be hilarious too!!!), like really burst into laughter and keep going at it for 5 min before dying down..and yeah, as aforementioned....weeping like nobody's business...haha was such a sight to behold yesterday that i had to hide me face from me dad to keep him from wondering whether i was getting a nervous breakdown :) *gRINz* yupyup!! but read her books if you guys can!! :) noh jan midarling, i dun think i'll be able to bear reading through the book again...especially the first part...(>o<)....heck, now i even feel like crying just thinking about it...argh! tylendil!! gala!! haha oh yah!!! this book has horses in it!!*bEAMs*!!!!!!!! hahahahaha!!!! happiness!!! and it's times at this i'd like to be chosen haha..
hahaha! i've decided to start writing a crappy story..haven't really decided where to start and what the plot is, heck, i may even delete that first post that speaks of romance hahaha!! anyway...do give me suggestions if you guys er...ever bother to look at it hahaha! click on the link at the sidebar if you're interested...if...*embarrassed*
*gRINz* heya!! am back!! :) haha well life so far? nothing much...went for saturday youth service yesterday..khoo kay huat gave a really good message...haha though he sounded like he was in a uniform group at one point in time.. (and the worship too!!! haha :)) He talked about "crossing over" the safe line...our comfort zone...thinking about it, if i were to ever look back at my life, i knew i'd be dissatisfied...doing what i can for Him isn't enough..and He knows it too... *sMILez* even as i think about it, i guess the "irritating idiot"'s(well the devil) telling me "yeah rite...u can't do it man, come on, you have enough to handle, can you trust Him? Do you even believe enough?" well i know i can't be compared to pillars of faith...heck, mine's even smaller than a seed! But i'm willing, and i will. After all, "Mr S.A. Tan"....i'm not a youth to be reckoned with! *beams*
By heart, by soul-avalon If You were a road I'd learn every turn til I Could find my way with my eyes closed If You were a song I'd sing along til I Knew every word and every note But you were everything to me A mystery You're the Love I live to see By heart, by soul Thats how I want to know You Keep you as close as Breath is to life Wanna watch Your Love unfold By heart, by soul If You were a place I'd stay my whole life til I Had every corner memorized And if You were a star I'd follow You home, You would be The Light that is my only guide You were everything to me My A to Z You're the Love thats lives in me I wanna know You inside and out Better than I even know myself If You were a star I'd follow You home by heart By soul
*gRINz* it rained today!!! haha...walking to the red house busstop took me 15 min longer than usual..deliberately slowed down, whiffing the nice fresh and cool air..especially on the bridge across the railway track..listening to the falling rain upon the trees...and the rustling branches...the rushing waters in the canal...being as close as i could get to nature...then i realised that i do miss odac (!!@_@) haha.. yup yup!!! *sMILEz* well, but my life isn't less interesting!! On the contrary...it's become (how shall i put it) more spiritually enhanced? hee..my da jie spent like 200 bucks on christian books one day..so now i'm reading this book on the Holy Spirit..which is really really good...and making use of another bible that focuses on Life application...so it's like having a daily bread for almost each and every verse in the Bible!! woohoo!!! :) haha..and somehow i feel "more thirsty" for Him...hee..
*gRINz* happiness!!!! my da jie borrowed veggietales!!! haha!!! (veggietales is this cartoon(wif vegetables that can speak) that teaches kids on moral vlaues using the bible and has funny songs!!!) love the mexican song episode!!! hahaha!!
Haha! the only advantage of the hot weather...we get nice crispy dried leaves!! have taken to jumping on every leaf i can find and hearing it go crunch...nice!!!!!! haha!! especially on the walk home...instead of hopping on stepping stones, some passers by probably see this mad rj girl jumping to and fro on the pathways muahaha.....*gRINz* maybe you guys could try this!!!! haha, and don't call me childish cos IT IS FUN!!!! *bEAMs*Yupyupyup!!! Hahaha went for the chem revision tutorial today(or remedial)...*sMILEz* heh..then steph (woohoo we have a stephanie sun in 6e!! haha...) gave me a lesson on what is a nail polisher (honestly i still think it looks like an ice cream stick....) hahaha..and some guys use it too!!! methinks i'll become more endowed in the knowledge of what we, the fairer sex use by the end of this year.... (^_^) Hee and i've learnt a new chinese..phrase!!! haha...did you know "one dog" in chinese is yi(one) tiao2 gou(3)? (!!-_-) makes it sound like one strip of dog (jia qing and me mom said it sounded like a hotdog muahahaha....) which is so wrong lah...haha then leqi went..."and yi1(one) li4 zhu(1)" hahahahaha!!!! (!!-_-) and the chem lecturer sent the attendance sheets around...saying that if he asks a question, the person with the attendance book would kena, have to answer!! haha..so when it came to our class row we panicked...well, only junwan, steph and me...haha...we were really devising ways if he called out at our seats...like throwing the book in front (we sat at the furthest row behind) hahaha...amusement...absolutely kan cheong.... all righty!! see that should be it! :)
Ah!!!!! wanna fly to malaysia...NOW!!!! *gRINz* haha paiseh, am in my moment sof leo ku madnes...argh!!! bleah! He'll be in malaysia on the 24th, april to grace the opening of a new karaoke place....and only 50 peeps will be invited!!!!! Why isn't he coming to singapore!!! (!!-_-) sobness...boohoo..
well...here's the other part... The judge passed the full sentence upon the lady, amidst her wails and upset shouts. As the court adjourned, the judge called the lady to his table. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a cheque book, writing the full fine the lady had been ordered to pay, and handed it to her. In this simple act, both justice and mercy were brought together at the same time by the judge...and it goes to be the same for our Judge. To Him who was flawless and hence knew right and wrong, indeed saw that we were not like Him. Sin, which we were guilty of, was a sure "offence".However, instead of making us feel the full weight of doing wrong, in mercy and love, Jesus took our place...each lashing and piercing of His hands punishment for what all of us would and will do in future. The Judge who determines justice therefore paid for our offences, in full and beyond, without us having to do anything, but to just believe. Believe in Him. That He did save us. *gRINz* halleilujah! Praise the Lord!
am back!!! *gRINz* updates so far? yup! guess i'll be rooted to 2so6e...dunno why, felt a mixture of happiness and sadness...why the former? hee am quite happy wif the class peeps...they're nice and amusing...and the timetable..and the teachers...which really says alot compared to getting a lousy mix of everything...in that way, He did answer my prayer! :) *gRINz* haiz and methinks the after effects of passion's making me a bit sad...haha! haiz...heh, spent an hour doing a simple volume integration problem...the state of my brain's blech!!! haha... Hee good to know that midarling! oh...(!!-_-) ding dong me...haha forgot to mention that bit...yah!!that's the most important point...the most essential basis of why He had to die...haha, here's a story for everyone then! There was a lady who was in court, charged the fourth time for drunk driving. For the previous 3 times she had been in and out, each time finding an excuse to escape the punishment meted out upon her. So now the judge had charged her for repeated offences-and that was to pay the maximum fine...with no excuses this time. Upon hearing the sentence, the lady burst forth in tears. She cried and pleaded with the judge, saying that she had been just divorced and needed to support her 3 young kids at home, so she really really had no way she could pay the fine. What do you think the judge did? Hee will reveal in the next entry...
*gRINz* happy easter peeps!!! may the love this season brings be shared amongst all of us!! hee mei mei came to wesley today! :) ah?! how's your knee? (!!=_=) sobness so ding dong...apply medication yah?! hee hope you liked it...heh and we learnt "thank you for the cross" in sign lang..nice! ;) well...then we went to watch "The Passion"..haiz...what can i say? i cried buckets..and hid my face behind my bag whilst He was being tortured..and it doesn't help to think that the story's a true life story...all i could think of during the show was, "This was how my Lord was treated..." and how much i love Him...for loving me.. :) well the show's gruesome, but i guess it's not as gruesome as it actually should have been, had we been there to watch the process around 2000 years ago...brings to mind what Rev Dr Norman Wong said to us today, on why Jesus had to die for us... 1) He loves us! True love that i don't think i've ever, and will ever see in anyone... "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. " John 15:13 2) To bridge the gap between man and God...by feeling the worst kind of pain possible...both physical and mental...humiliation...etc..and it's worse, because He chose to do so...so that He could identify with our pain.. 3) Jesus carried the price for ALL OUR SINS...maybe that's why He had it extra bad...the flogging, the scourging...the crucifixtion... 4) To allow us free choice...for isn't that how true love is?... and more... "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. " 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 "And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. " 1 Corinthians 13-13 "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.... Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life." Isaiah 43-2,4 Love, promise, hope...eternal life..freedom from sin and death...and all it takes, is to just allow Him into your heart, that He IS the one true Lord...i wouldn't find another King like that willing to go through all these for us..somehow, this movie reminded me again.. And to you, you who delighted in His death once and found it wasn't to be so...Genesis 50:20 (well... in slight context) "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done..." I love You Lord, more than anything. I love You Lord, more than my heart could sing. I love You Lord, more than i love myself, I love You Lord, I love You Lord, I love You Lord. And as John wesley said before He died, "The best of all is, God is with us." To the end of time.
(!!-_-) this is freaky...i have people on my msn list whom i didn't add and they didn't add me either...hm..could someone tell me how msn works? haha! but well...so i made new frens..especially this person who flies at the youth flying club (cool!!!) hehe..yup!! and my students found me (ack!!!) so they started this chat thingy where 2 or more can yakkity yak all day long..and i was added...apparently one couldn't remember me, so the other launched into a description of how i always banged the board, went oii..and the lot...*amusement*..and of course, from the william hung story (cum antics) i did...haiz..should i be happy or sad? heh.. Hee thank you everyone who's been concerned about me...and of course the peeps who have contacted others cos you guys are concerned...am mighty touched!! *sMILez*..yup!! yesh..i'll go yak wif papa low next week...i promise...and the canteen aunty...heh shall record an account of what happened so i wun need to repeat myself..
haha! found a really good encyclopedia webby...actually it was given to ze class by mr khoo so we could research on our presentation for gp...haha! found that it's more than an encyclopedia! shall read it to upgrade meself if...and IF i have the time..(although the limerick portion contains some really dirty poems...) well if you guys wanna go read up more (it has a list of recent deaths, news...etc etc...) it's www.wikipedia.org click!
Hee just read a darling's blog again... Well, it does happen to me all the time as well :) My papa mama and da jie are forever saying such things to me, especially when i work on gifts for peeps, "spend so much time and energy on these things, but do they appreciate it?" or rather, "be careful of them...you may think they're so nice but actually they're making use of u (or) they're hypocrites"...hee it doesn't really help that i've been thru three disastrous friendships...2 of whom betrayed me and made life almost hellish...heck, i even hated my first two years in nanyang then..shan't divulge who they are..cos maybe i failed on my part too..yup! so therefore they're afraid i'll be thru it again... Hee i guess that's one reason why I get quite jumpy when it comes to relationships..after all, once bitten twice shy, but i can't help it..and i know, you can't help it too :) After all, our roads with these peeps cross only once, maybe more than that, and if their lives have been spent being jealous of others, or gloating over others' misfortune, or being a wolf in sheep's clothing, i don't see the reason why i should behave the way they are towards themselves too! :) *sMILez* and i dun think i can stand being that way...even now, there are peeps being insensitive and stuff...but just be true to yourself, and know that you've given it your best shot, and it is after all your choice! :) yupyup~! so at the end of this race, when you glance back at this road we call life, you'll be reeeally happy wif yourself yah?! hee yupsh! love ya!
woohoo!!! just listened to this tune...er.."Kaoru's love theme" from the anime rurouni kenshin, or rather, samurai x...haha...it's a rather boring tune...but it's brilliant when the song reaches its climax! haha the drums and other instruments come into play apart from the solitary piano! and a beat after that comes the flute!!! ack!!! i love the flute!!!! haha even Chris (shan't say he's my lil' brother anymore...crap, he's taller than me!! *gRINz* loved that part!!
*gRINz* haha!!! ooh!! found two malaysian channels to perk my 1-6 am mornings!! they have djs all day long (not that i understand the canto one but they play leo ku's songs so frequently!!!) haha and it really helps to perk me up! :) *mental note: learn korean* haha...here are guys' voices you really have to hear!!! 1)Leo ku!!! 2) Alec su you peng (oh! and maybe chen zhi peng...one of the xiao hu dui guys...) 3) william so-su yong kang 4)josh groban 5)gareth gates(?) 6) wu yin liang pin 7)van fan yi chen!!! have nothing much to say about the girls...haha just that in singapore...the best voices i've heard so far are andrea's(andrea liang) and diya's!!! (haha midarlings are you touched?) woohoo!!! maybe sun yan zi too eh...but for hers it takes a good song for me to appreciate her..oh!! and lea salonga!!!
Hahaha!! thank you mei mei midarling!!! *gRINz* i shall go get it...yah...even the violins from yamaha are sad...bought mine in europe because the quality of the sound was so much better...except that in europe one had to get their own bow (no sponsored) and my dad had to bargain it out of them haha... yup yup!and for the record...i cut my hair!!! woohoo!!! now i shall go back making gifts for my dear sec ones....
We are the Reason As little children We would dream of Christmas morn Of all the gifts and toys We knew we'd find But we never realized A baby born one blessed night Gave us the greatest gift of our lives We were the reason That He gave His life We were the reason That He suffered and died To a world that was lost He gave all He could give To show us the reason to live As the years went by We learned more about gifts The giving of ourselves And what that means On a dark and cloudy day A man hung crying in the rain All because of love, all because of love I've finally found the reason for living It's in giving every part of my heart to Him In all that I do every word that I say I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him He is my reason to live
Happy good friday soon midarlings!!! hee really wanted to watch the passion but chickened out at the last minute cos the 5 min trailer was haunting enuff..well but it's great anyway :) aniwae, here's a challenge for you guys...hee it's another 2 songs..used to sing them alot in sec school.. Give Them All Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows? Are you tired of turning round and round? Pick up all the shattered dreams of your life, And at the feet of Jesus lay them down. Give them all, Give them all, Give them all to Jesus, Shattered dreams, wounded hearts and broken toys. Give them all, Give them all, Give them all to Jesus, And He will turn your sorrows into joy :) He never said there'll only be sunshine He never said there'll be no rain.. He only promised a heart full of singing Of the very things that once brought pain... Give them all, Give them all, Give them all to Jesus, Shattered dreams, wounded hearts and broken toys. Give them all, Give them all, Give them all to Jesus, And He will turn your sorrows into joy :)
hee here's a song that expresses what i've been feeling... Empower Me Nobody knows how weak i am Better than You Nobody sees all of my needs Better than You And nobody has the pOwer To change me, to what i was born to be Jesus, be strong in my weakness Empower me Empower me, like a rushing river Flowing to the sea Lord, send Your Holy Spirit flowing Out through me Til I'm living as Your child Victorious and free Send the power of Your love Empower me Nobody's eyes see through my soul Better than you Nobody's love can make me whole, No love but Yours....
*gRINz* hahaha!!! my msn messenger's finally up! *beams* am super proud of myself now...haha this lazy bag of me has decided to do sth about the backward state of my computer affairs :) haha yay!!! my thyroxine levels have dropped! lower than before!!! halleilujah!!! yupsh! and my sis has passed her mbbs!!! which means she's a doc now muahaha! at least, a houseman, but she's already gotten her employment package where they addressed her dr lim muahaha..and she gets her pay!!!! haha...yup!!! then dr sin- this second da pai at alexandra hospital told me she did quite well...brilliant!! haha... haha!! am currently addicted to rox's chocs!!! it's this jap brand at taka where they have orange, wine and bitter chocs! love them all!! haha and they package it really nicely..and even provide a pick for you to savour each piece woohoo!!! haha..but it's super ex so i can only get one box...per 3 mths? haha but this one's been sponsored by me sis...yum yum!!!
ah!!! my girl's really nice!!! those two are really sweet together! jaeb and noi....haha...and they're really good looking! especially the female lead! haha love her laughing eyes although she can't really express the crying bits...but i cried like crazy!!! especially since it was so sweet! not just about the two of them but the friendship bits too..haha and it's hilarious lah... :) watched "he's a woman she's a man" on channel eight last sat...haiz it's really nice even tho there're lots of sexual connotations...and the songs are brilliant..but they're not playing part 2!!! haiz...hee got so affected by the show i went to get his cd..which is like treasure to me now (it cost me a bomb man!!!) yup yup!!!
haha oh yah! *gRINz* hee i've rekindled the passion to pick up every instrument i can get my hands on...so now, after the piano and violin (ey...the recorder doesn't count) and a lame whistling encounter comes the....flute!!! and guitar!! and drums!!! muahaha!! mei mei midarling taught me a few keys on the flute and the blowing method and my dad's gonna get a good flute alright! although it really is super ex...does anyone know a good brand? hee...music madness... *sMILEz* haha..yup! another happy thing! my dad actually knew how to fold grasshoppers made out of leaves! haha note the "knew"...was watching channel u with the wu zong xian's shi zi lu kou variety show...and they had a segment on kids folding them!!! haha so i shouted in happiness and told my dear da jie that i wanted to watch that part...have been searching like crazy for the past 2 years on how to fold it...remember telling mei mei abby and meh meh darling that i'd marry the guy who can fold it for me muahaha...and as it turns out..it's unnecessary! hee apparently my dad used to fold alot of these for my da jie when she was young...*jealous*...haha...
*gRINz* hee paiseh...took so long to come back on...hee yup! aniwae, here's an update of what's been happening to me..am in 2SO6E now..with peeps i knew before i stepped in...zhengyuan, junwan, leqi...hee so i guess it was not that bad :) yup! and the teachers are nice...at least they pretend i'm normal (erm, i am! ) haha..the peeps are nice, especially the girls, hehe so now there are 9 of us out of 24...with the rest-guys...haha yeah, and steph told me yesterday (to which i just noticed) about this guy's hair which is just "to-die-for" and how the girls are super jealous...hahaha...quite true! :) yupsh! haiz but i've become so used to the class i'm sort of hoping i might not get into trip science...even though i do need to try it out (parents' orders)...so i'm trying not to attach meself too much...but the peeps are rather nice and their timetable's superb!! ack! yup! so i've been surviving the past few weeks...hehe actually only two and i'm being a good girl! haha doing my work and studying...yeah man...with such vigilance i'm even more amazed than anyone could be :) hee.. trying to cram stuff into the lil pea of a brain in my head that bounces around in that crevice going "whee!!!" so i can go for the youth ministry leader's retreat in june...
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