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I Adore by Australia Hillsongs The universe is at Your feet Gives You praise Evermore The stars will light the sky for You Always God be praised And we sing The Lord is on high The Lord is on high I adore You I adore You And there's none that compares To Your majesty O Lord I adore You I adore You And I stand In wonder of Your love We will crown You King forever Living Saviour Jesus Redeemer Lord of Heaven Robed in majesty Crowned in glory Creation adores You Holy Holy God almighty And forever the Lord is exalted Hear the angels Shout His anthem Ever-living God we adore You
Hahaha! Here's a little advertisement...Festival of Praise is coming!!! Hmm...on the 4th and 5th of june, which means it's on friday and saturday, 7.30 pm at the singapore indoor stadium and the guest performers for this event will be hillsongs! yupsh!! haha hope u guys will go if you're free! *gRINz* woohoo! can't wait for friday to come! :)
hahaha! oh yah! watched one episode of american idol when the australian idol, guy sebastian made a guest appearance...goodness! this song's nice!!! listen to it yah? haha..kind of looking forward to the world idol..which i'm going to miss!(!!-_-).saw the tv trailer and simon looked so tame and a much better person that the other judge who was insulting contestants for the sake of doing it! grrr... haha anyway...here are the lyrics...actually it's the tune and the way the key changes that make it nice... "Angels Brought Me Here" ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE It's been a long and winding journey, But I've finally here tonight picking up the pieces and walking back into the light Into the sunset of your glory where my heart and future lies There's nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes My dreams came true when I found you; I found you, my miracle If you could see what I see That you've the answer to my prayers And if you could feel the tenderness i feel You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here standing here before you Feels like I've been born again Every breath is your LOVE Every heartbeat speaks your name My dreams came true right here in front of you my miracle If you could see what I see You're the answer to my prayer And if you could feel the tenderness i feel You would know it would be clear, that angles brought me here brought me here, to be with you Ill be forever grateful, oohh forever thankful My dreams came true when I found you my miracle If you could see what I see You're the answer to my prayers, oh... And if u could feel the tenderness i feel You would know it would be clear that angels brought me here You know i love you baby And if you could feel the tenderness i feel You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
haha hols are here!!!!! hee what else have i been doing? *gRINz* reading alot!!! haha intend to devour all the nice books rj has...so i read pay it forward (which emptied my tear ducts) and cs lewis's tales of narnia..saw the parallelism between the story and Christianity...cried buckets man!!! haha and now! am reading sherlock holmes...hee like the way holmes thinks..and his logical deductions...brilliant, absolutely brilliant... Haiz was listening to this canto/ chinese malaysian channel on my bed and half fell asleep when i heard them reporting a programme for the week...heh imagine my indignation and the way i jumped out of my bed when i realised that they were going to have an one hour special on leo ku!!!! argh!!!! and i had missed it a few hours ago cos i was napping!!! (!!-_-) sobness... Hee oh yah...this happened quite some time ago but let me say it so you guys can be careful of the red house busstop route..hmm...apparently this rj girl got attacked early may..and so dominic and hodge kept telling us (oh yah!!! mr leong yu wah's vp!!!! hahaha!!!)to beware of that route..but one day..cos steph jiaqing and i were in a group...therefore we walked to the busstop on our way home using that route...goodness gracious...haha we were horrified to see this guy, chinese, and around 20 (fitting the description of the assailant) who freaked us out even more when he turned around..gave us a smile and we realised he was wearing red lipstick!!! biangz!!! after that we kept wondering if we should call the police...to be safe than sorry when we saw a ploiceman walk past that guy without suspecting anything!!! haiz...be careful mefrens...be careful...
Goodness gracious! i'll be at mauritius for 5 days!!! (!!-_-) a beet long eh...haha anyways! if u guys want anything (like er...seashells? sand samples? haha wat else do they have there?) just tell me! :) haha.. oh!! and congrats jan midarling! hee but frankly i never had any doubt in your entry...yupsh! and congrats dear ole kennef too! haha..you can sing to your patients and charm them *beams*
*gRINz* haha happiness!!! yesh~!!! :) i guess it's cos God has been very real to me this entire week *sMILEz* hee little miracles here and there and His ways of encouraging me along...giving frens i can count on and building pillars of support around me even though He's the main pillar..hee well maybe some of u may think it's a difference cos last year i had Graves disease...but still, it's a miracle~! "In Christ alone, i place my trust, And find my glory in the power of the cross.. With every victory, let it be said of me... My source of strength, my source of hope, Is Christ alone..." love You love You love You! "..I'll sing to You Lord A hymn of Love For Your faithfulness to me I'm carried in everlasting arms You'll never let me go Through it all..."
ahhh!!! shah's getting married!!! hahaha congratulations gal!!! haiz i feel so old (which i'm not!!!) *gRINz* wish you happiness everlasting with your darling...haha a bit soon eh...we're only 18/19...:) haha but it's cool to see two top malay students come together...*hugs* congratulations again!!!
Hahahaha! i'm back after a loong looong while! *gRINz* first things first....RJC WON RUGBY!!!!! Hahahaha! was half screaming like a mad woman...i bet pingying and jamie were super embarrassed muahaha.. haiz but i admit i was super deflated and didn't feel like cheering when i saw the ac ruggers praying...could feel the faith somehow...and i got super pissed with this guy who was laughing at the ac banner which read "the Lord is our strength"...i have nothing to say if one laughs at the crappy types like "don't mess with us" but this was argh! like he wasn't laughing at ac so i glared at him.. Hee but after a miserable first penalty kick we had another...and i guess i was so panicky i just closed my eyes and prayed where i stood...especially the one where we went into overtime and it was super crucial...yah the ruggers are good...but it really freaked me out cos for both penalty shots...before the ball was kicked...i had a picture in my mind showing me how it would go in..and it did..the exact way! haha got so dumbfounded i just stood there gaping..and then whispered a thank You....praise You always and thank You!:) Hee it was a super touching for all rafflesians!!! Couldn't stop laughing and jumping! *sMILez* Yupsh! argh!!! speaking of my brother...his guitar playing's super zai!!! hahaha was trying to learn a few chords on the guitar with him when he played this X Japan song, Endless Rain which basically sounds nice especially when it is played with the computer programme and he could do techniques like vibrato and some string pulling thingy (haha he's zai to me lah...)!! haha! hey and he didn't do that with the violin! but anyways i'm super impressed!!! shall bai4 him as shifu!!!haha so now i'm inspired to master the piano violin guitar and flute!!! haha maybe then the drums and then the clarinet!! *gRINz* speaking of which i just broke my violin string..again...(!!-_-) Hahaha yesh so after rugby i went to sakae sushi at raffles place (they have the buffet til 9 pm!) and became super duper bloated hahaha! so abby mei mei shu and i started stuffing our rice below all the plates...like mr bean...hahaha feel quite bad yah..and all of us couldn't stop laughing when they gave us like 19 servings of watermelon in all!!! had to smuggle the handroll away hahaha..anyway...happy burfday mei mei!!!!! :) *hugs* Apart from all the fun...haiz quite dead for gp...hee they had gay marriages for the comprehension and when i first flipped the paper i couldn't stop laughing...shall let you guys read one of the passages one day...the writer's really amusing... Yupsh! haha shall go off now...enuff crap...see ya all soon! "Auspicium melioris aevi! With God to guide the way!"
haha!!! i'll be going to the maldives in june!!!!! clear blue sea and white white sand here i come!!!! *gRINz*
:) *gRINz* i'm back!!! heh must look as if i've disappeared for quite some time eh...and the tagboard went haywire on me...(!!-_-) have to admit...felt a bit down these few days so pardon me if i've been rather irresponsive...somehow seem to be surrounded by "death"..be it this rather distant relative...or a movie we watched at gp (goodness it was super sad!!!!) or listening to this sad story on YES 933 or how the idiotic iraqis beheaded the american...haiz and i admit i'm stressed...not because of school really..although recently i've felt it does nothing but take up time i could be having for Him...and agian, for my sec one small group...pray for me my frens...somehow i feel i'm not "up to it"..looking at spiritual giants around me...it's really amazing how small one can feel...i need wisdom..and it feels as though i've done almost everything wrong..have I? also...i guess it must be 31st may drawing near...so fast that one year seems to have passed eh...365 days...and i wonder how i got thru it when i start thinking of you...are you looking down at me from above? or are you frolicking in the golden fields of peace, happiness and comfort midarling? i miss you.. Ack! *gRINz* i must be tired eh? hee...guess a stroll along the singapore river might help...on wednesday perhaps..instead of swimming at buona vista swimming complex...have coffee bean and sit on the riverbanks..
*gRINz* heya! hee well here's a teesy weensy update of me...school's as usual..haha my ct was on a high today because twas his baby's first month on a little globe called earth!!! haha...so we were watching clips of his very cute baby (biang! he has a big head larh! will become a smart kid...) and feasting on the ferrero chocs he brought...*sighs happily* haha then he started going on an sdu campaign..heh to which i groaned... yup! and jan came to eat bkfast with me today!! hahaha! honestly i didn't know one could walk into the library wearing outside clothes...haha you probably already look the teacher midarling...yupsh! and i saw darling selina!*gRINz* (who happened to give me a poke...(!!-_-) )...yesh...i shudder to think about the west mall murder..and the stupidity of the crowd..but methinks anyone who wields a knife and has gone berserk would be the equivalent of someone having a gun, unless we have the latter that is...haiz..but that shop's really unsuitable for running away...heck, i couldn't even walk properly from one point to another...heh but crap! they had weights! rackets! everything suitable for self defense! did u know the victim was next to a box of weights? *groans*(methinks i know the exact spot now...) argh!!! and the huge green dustbin was nearby! didn't anyone have the sense to take of the lid and cap it over him? or go into the bedroom furniture next door, snatch a huge comforter and throw it over his head? sighness...but what's done cannot be undone...just hope they don't acquit the murderer on accounts of madness... on a lighter note...haha! am gonna help chen lao shi for chinese orchestra concert on saturday night at the singapore conferece hall! *gRINz* freaked me out at first cos i did think it was at the singapore expo (heh me direction sense is a bit not there...) hee but ha! it's at tanjong pagar...nearer than expected...hee will be doing ticketing sales...so instead of the rj tie alone like last year since it's supposed to be more grand) i'll be wearing the rj blazer and their skirt (oh no!!!!! jan! that means i'll have to wear those shoes and sit demurely!!!! sobness!!!) which means i might just be sweltering away like nobody's business....haiz....haha! but it'll be amusing looking at the people who drift here to watch....ah well! won't be so bad yeah?
*gRINz*, hee and another point to another fren... Yeah diya midarling, a few days back i saw this primary school eating his sushi super happily...whilst waiting for the mr green man to appear and after that he simply threw it down on the road...i was pissed lah! hee my first thot was to tap him on the shoulder and tell him that the nice green dustbin was just NEXT to him...like literally! and he was being super inconsiderate..haiz...but i didn't...heh and this other guy spat at the busstop just as my bus pulled up...really wanted to scold him...hee but i managed to glare at him...cos he looked so smug with himself...mthinks he felt...or rather looked guilty after that... Sighness...i dunno, i guess it's a bad thing as well...the problem with us humans are we're constantly wondering (and worrying) how people think of us..after all, isn't it based on such opinions that we draw a picture of "who we are" from? apart from 1) family, 2)yourself, which basically just makes up 5 % of who i think i am..being accepted by society, wanting to be popular and keeping our lives at low risk in our homes might just be our common flaw...maybe it even relates to our spirtual lives...and how Mr "S.A. Tan" plays on that...very cunningly.. Which is why it's so hard to cross our comfort zone...hee going back to that sermon? khoo hay huat also talked about crossing over two lines...number one: the line of the unknown...number two: the line of the impossible..and most of the time we haven't even crossed the first line..which begins in our hearts :) And maybe that's why we aren't feeling as spiritually fulfilled as we should be..but don't forget that we can do all things through Him... Hee adriel said this before in class...feel that it's rather important... guess i'll just type it here :) 1)I surrender my wisdom for Your judgement 2)I surrender my ambition for Your will 3)I surrender my rights for Your righteousness and last but not least... 4) I surrender my reputation for Your glory.
dear midarling...i guess i've smsed you enuff to speak of it...:) let me just speak again okie? on the difference between "existing" and "living".... What is to "exist" and to "live"? Are we just existing without living? The simplest level we can ever go onto, is that to exist is the fact that you are on this world, from the animate to the inanimate...things like an eraser, a car, they do and truly exist midarling, just as you and i do...but the difference between us and them, is that we live. (*gRINz* which brings us back to primary school science!) However, whatever we may be, even in the term "living", we are one notch higher than any other animal that crawls on the surface of the earth...indeed, here's where evolution just makes no sense...rather, 'Non-Sense'..no stupid glob of bateria could ever form into something as intelligent as you and i, although we may appear vaguely similar to the ape...midarling, you and i truly live...unless you are brain-dead...you and i FEEL. Elation, excitement, worry, anger, frustration, sorrow, depression, grief, fear...that only makes us human, and it's a sign that we do LIVE truly. To take it one step further...somehow one thing i've learnt throughout the past few years, is that you'll alway live. Not physically anyway... but as a part of someone else's memory...the places you've gone to, the footprints you've left behind..who's to say that there will be someone on this planet who wants to relive what you've done as peeps try to do with their favourtie authors or poets? Frankly speaking, there's just one more point...although you may just ignore this...cause to me, truly living is not living until He's been accepted into my life...ever questioned why the heck are we on this glob peeps call earth? why the heck are we rushing to and fro? yeah...for our kids...and then when you ask your kids? oh, for my kids as well! Some stupid vicious cycle it is ain't it? and when one searches deep inside...like really deep..will one be satisfied? Even though i've been a Christian in name for my entire life until i did accept Him truly...i can say that without Him..living isn't living...but if you're adverse to this point..forget it...although i'd like you to think about it yah? Hee and let's not go into the great debate whther He truly exists..with the way things have been for the last 18 years of me life...(heck, i don't even have to bring out the entire history of the world to evidence that)..the times little miracles have been happening to the larger miracles that make me remember them for life, no one can ever refute that He is false. He doesn't exist anymore. And to other skeptics... don't say there was someone other god who might have been nice enough to help me...cause there was a certain event that i only told...to Him..and He helped me..in a very subtle way..which then scared the living daylights out of me haha...but yeah...hee if any of you are interested..feel free to ask..goodness...i'm still amazed by it:) So leaving that paragraph out, maybe it just boils down to one question: Are we living to the fullest..or only for the sake of living? I don't know about you guys, but i picture it this way...think yourself as the centre of a web...as you get to know more people...the web extends...and they know other people too...which causes the entire web to extend beyond imagination. So what? you may ask...the catch is this: as long as there's someone who loves you, someone who cares about you, you have the burden to carry on living, to the fullest...so the more people you know, the greater is your responsiblity to do just that..alone, you may be, physically...your heart may be walled, your mind adamant to the subtleties of care and concern some peeps may be giving...but midarling, i can tell you that we're always with you as much as we can, be it in heart or mind..if need be, we'd carry the entire lighting system of singapore into your life, and your darkest of nights..feel free to call me...and we don't have to talk...heck we can just stone and enjoy each other's company (altho phones bills rise horrendously...(!!-_-)) Hee and for starters, here's a tiny addition to that web of yours: me *hugs*
hahaha!! i feel so good after my skipping! *gRINz* although it always takes a thousand years for me to chide myself into starting...hee..but at any rate, i still prefer to swim (buona vista swimming pool!!!!! hee and je!!!! shu han midarling we should just make it a ritual every wednesday muahaha!!!) ...happiness...
Just Let Me Say-Don moen Just let me say How much I love You Let me speak of Your mercy and grace Just let me live In the shadow of Your beauty Let me see You face to face and the earth will shake as Your word goes forth And the heavens can tremble and fall but let me say how much I love You O my Savior, my Lord and Friend Just let me hear Your finest whispers As You gently call my name And let me see Your power and Your glory Let me feel Your Spirit's flame Let me find You in the desert 'Til this sand is holy ground And I am found completely surrendered To You, my Lord and friend So let me say how much I love You With all my heart I long for You For I am caught in the passion of knowing This endless love I've found in You And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found To be called a child of God Just makes me say How much I love You O my Savior, my Lord and Friend
hohohoho!!! haha news!!! *gRINz* 3 songs sung by leo ku have "conquered" the karaoke scene in malaysia...not to mention his song's on the canto top 20! haha!!! and our dear leo ku's been listed as number 5 out of all the hk actors and actresses by a hk magazine!!!! woohoo!!! hee although methinks it may just be the fans....heh.. haiz..read the lyrics book that came wif his cd where he wrote a short passage..haiz...he still misses his old gf..well, what can i say...romantic nights of him singing to her on the beach...hahaha...gosh...i'm so grossed out with meself...but heck! he can really sing!
hee midarling...paiseh for the late post..dunno if you'll read this but ah well! *gRINz*and to my frens who know who A is..or was caught up someway...let's just leave this story as it is... hm...how to begin? hee deja vu...let's just say your story's a trifle bit similar to mine :) only mine was really like a dynamite ready to explode...on hindsight...so let's bring a bit of story telling in yeah? hee and see if it parallels to mine...after all there are lessons to be learnt from every experience...just don't repeat mine... *sMILEz* i was your age too when it started ( gosh i sound like an old hag telling tales...) sec one..which then overflowed into sec2..before entering nanyang girls' high, i had 3 very good friends, one of whom- let's call her A - got into the same school as me :) hee yup! and even better, the same class, and later, the same cca... It turned out that i was a wee bit shy and introverted, and hence didn't really dare to make new frens in this school...furthermore, she and i were really close: we'd walk from the school all the way home (took us 5 hours:) from nanyang, coronation plaza to 6th avenue and to bukit batok...talk nonstop (although it normally ended wif me at kap doing my big business...the wonders of exercise :)) and everything under the stars...we knew each other's "dark"secrets, and when one was sick, the other would make a trip down to her house to make sure she was alright :) i hung out wif only her...even in cca, class...only that we sat at different places in the classroom... She was the more outgoing one...quick to make acquaintances...and i simply didn't quite bother too :)hee notti me eh...and thus her social circle became much wider than mine(heh mine didn't even have enuff to make a circle to begin with...not to mention friendships in my primary school days were traumatising)...so when we went for recess...somehow when we always stopped to make little conversation, it would be her...not me.. And for your dear fren over here...heh somehow it must be a "mama" thingy...in class i couldn't help but feel jumpy for my classmates between classes and in the mornings being late would render them scoldings or warning slips....so i started ushering them out...and the same thing happened with my cca...somehow...i guess i started to care for those with me...and furthermore...i disliked things to be in ahaze...with hardly any one taking lead...i just had to...so that's probably where the trouble started... Then somehow or rather the way i wrote, my english and literature got my teachers to notice me...and they had this stupid thing of making the writer with reasonably high gradesgrades read out her composition in class...apart from this, it was rather freaky how the two of us were getting quite prominent in cca...with her being quite loud til it seemed to be rude...and how i tried to reduce the after effects (after all we're a uniform group...and it's not too nice to be the way she was with them...)...and then later being noticed by the teacher in charge after A told her i could play both piano and violin and she, the latter and we could perform at this all uniform groups concert with the big people present...which we did...gosh and i went thru all of it in a haze..(All i could remember was the teacher chiding me for wearing my sister's faded guides uniform...well they've been doing it for 4 years...) and later, at this annual camp...from being a total blur head, or a ding dong...He blessed me with the best sec1 camper award... Another catalyst? Back in class we had "little political affrontations" where we literally changed our monitress 4 times...each time me getting voted in to the top four..somehow a contestant for the monitress/ass. monitress/displine mistress. and she somehow not voted...even though i nominated her. This tension was made worse when her parents started placing pressure on her, aggravating matters was the stress behind juggling with 3rd lang...and she really disliked our form teacher...whom i think, may have felt the same way too.. Then the nightmare began with her getting caught cheating on a chinese spelling..rather blatant as the girl sitting next to her told me afterward...which made me quite pissed cos she denied it to my frens, in tears ....and i believed her whole heartedly..and that made her thoroughly dislike the teacher...it didn't help that we were PRCS (heh not the people's republic of china, but Permanent Residents of Chinese remedial)and she had to face the teacher...so one day the crack came... She refused to come down for remedial, staying in the classroom and crying..so my teacher sent us up to get her..she complained about the stress...complained about the teacher...for 2 hours while my classmate and i partly listened and partly tried to reason with her...afterwhich we went home together (even tho we took different buses...) but that journey shook me a bit...cos on the bus, she said "XX (a classmate)talked to me last night.." "hee and so?" i wondered... "she asked if i was jealous of you..." so stupid me exclaimed in disbelief...cos she always appeared more popular than me..and i was hurt at how recently i started "talking to a wall" with her paying more attention to her other frens...where i barely had any...i never knew why cos she had to get off...and that night, she called me and told me she was...i was dumbfounded but behaved as if nothing happened... then it got worse...she started crying in class...crying in cca...complaining to seniors and frens, even teachers about me...imagine how bewildered i was....and all along i thought she was stressed! i still remember the second time she broke down after school...where i panicked and looked for my class councillor (a sec3 councillor in charge of my class), ran, brought her to talk to A cos my coaxing was not getting anywhere...and she told them things i don't even know..til now..to which the councillor later said it was regarding me...and then the seniors in cca started telling me that too when she spent cca after cca crying...and then my friends...even people i didn't know...and to the teachers..so much so i felt like i was a baddie..the bad person who bullied her when i didn't do anything...and even did anything to help her....sec1 and 2 was a living nightmare...i dreaded to see her break down and have it placed on my shoulders, i dreaded to have to say to people "i didn't do anything!" until i dreaded to see her...i tried, but it hurt...and maybe now it still does...what came after that i shan't speak more...but we have cut off all connections from each other... on reflection, maybe i failed her as a friend...my being hurt had probably hurt her...i know the years after that i dared not make any really close frens (which i failed at this) , or really shine, consciously or not..cos i didn't want to see this happen again... That’s where I want to encourage you my dear…it’s good to see that you’re fighting for yourself and Him, and I want you to keep it like that okie? As for her…you could try a different communication route…like really sit down and talk with her…it’s going to be painful, it’s going to cut…but it’ll never end if you don’t…and maybe 4 years down the road…I don’t want my friends to regret like I do…thinking on what went wrong…thinking if things were handled well maybe it could all have taken a better route… It’s only human for one to want to be with the popular or near the popular…that doesn’t make your fren any exception…and to make her more human, she refuses to admit what you tell her what you don’t like about her..so try to do it gradually yah?J everyone puts on defenses when they’re told they’re wrong…they may even feel hurt..hee one good way would be that you could suggest improvements, instead of pinpointing her mistakes blatantly…or telling her it isn’t “Christian”…maybe don’t show her how well u do…or tell others to prevent her from striking up jealousy…there are a thousand dos and donts, for human relationships are that complex and unfathomable…I understand how it feels to have someone talking behind your back…sometimes you feel like lashing out at them or doing something to do so they’ll regret what they did…sometimes it’ll inspire you to work harder to show them what you’re really worth…but know this midarling…she may be having problems you never knew…maybe at home where she can only keep it in and display it in school..displaying a strong and “mean” front when the inside’s actually highly vulnerable…it takes a lot of courage to be a bully u know… Watched a video on religion during my general paper lesson today…where this islam radical mocked Jesus for saying if someone slaps you on the face, turn it and let him slap the other side…and called Him stupid cos look what happened to Moses and peeps…I call the islam radical senseless myself if he is to take it all literally! What Jesus meant, was if someone lashes out at another when he or she was obviously not in the wrong..backstabbing etc…instead of bringing ourselves down to their level..do what you know He’d like to see you do…maybe your fren’ll see the folly of her actions in seeing how you behave…and if she doesn’t, your classmates will..and you should know that I’m always with you midarling…not behind you, cos khoo kay huat was right, “when you say behind me…how far behind?” I won’t be on the sidelines…but I’ll be running the race with you..so gambate!J okie? Hee regarding the moses thing…to anyone who might be interested to hear and know a bit of background 1) God gave the blockheaded king enough evidence through moses to show the king He was real, that He wanted His people freed from slavery 2) The previous “plagues” were harmless…and the king had choices laid bare before him dang it! 3) If anyone were to be so evil and stupid and fearless as the king…even after time and time of warning…(heck! He had so many warnings!)… being able to place thousands of jews under torture..the punishment was just and deserved…after all mr islam radical, I don’t see why you have the right to scold others when you are a “huge pot trying to call the kettle black.” 4) Good triumphs over evil….need I say more…
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